Pain

Most of this week has been... painful. I woke up Monday morning quite earlier than I like to wake up running of fever of roughly 102. Last week of school, of course. Important day to be in class, of course. Since then I've been resting at a low-grade fever with a sore throat and some nausea. I think what I've come to hate the most about being sick is the acheyness and the exhaustion, though. The other things would be manageable if you didn't get that "I'm-going-to-die" type of feeling along with it. It doesn't help that every time I get legitimately sick (not just I-don't-feel-good sick, because I'm in a constant state of that) I panic a little bit that all the doctors have missed something and I truly am about to die from some horrible illness. You call it paranoia, I call it last summer.

 All in all, it's being a very unpleasant and difficult week. It has certainly had its bright spots, though, like going out to get some real food and watch a movie with Em last night. We talked like young British boys nearly the entire way home and giggled uncontrollably. His giggle is one of the best sounds in the world. In the spirit of thinking about really nice things while not feeling so nicely, I shall list pleasant things to do when one is ill:


Eat really wonderful soup (preferably Soupbox) and drink good tea, preferably while lounging in bed


Catch up on all your favourite TV shows on Hulu 


Hug someone really nice 


Make a coccoon out of pillows and hibernate for a few hours 


Write love letters 


Take pictures of your sick face, so when you're well again you can appreciate that your skin is not normally that colour 


Lay on the grass on a sunny day and soak up the warmth 


Take a bath 


Read an entire book 


Use your sick-raspy voice to see how much like a space alien you can sound


Enjoy a deep, medicine-induced sleep (and just think - when you're sick is the only time you should do this, so enjoy the soundness) 


Escape from the world and enjoy some quiet 


Get your fiancee to study Song of Songs (okay, well, he actually did that on his own, but the effect of that is a wonderfully thoughtful and romantic man being even more wonderfully thoughtful and romantic) 


Apply for jobs, even if you don't want them it makes you feel productive while doing something mindless 


Talk to your mom (let's be honest, 80% of people want their moms when they're sick, the other 20% had bad mothers) 


Wear really fantastic undergarmets and/or pajamas 


Watch an children's movies 


Drink more juice than would ever be suitable otherwise (because who doesn't love juice?) 


Teach yourself origami 


Go for a walk, even if you don't feel like it. Moving around a bit will at least sort out a few crunchy muscles 


Listen to instrumental music 


Plan a mini-celebration for when you're not sick anymore (treat yourself to ice cream?) 


Dream about travelling 


Re-evaluate your life 


Talk to an old friend on the phone 


Do some homework (I know, doesn't sound fun, but it is a nice feeling to accomplish things even when not feeling well) 


Spend some time with God; thinking, praying, cracking open the Bible or listening to sermons online, whatever your jam is 


Remember what it was like to be very young 


Imagine what it would be like to be very old 


Laugh 


Practice winking 


Take your temperature (I like thermometors, don't judge) 


And mostly just lie in bed, and when you get tired of lying in bed, remember that when you're not sick you wish you could just lie in bed.